Cameron’s Secret On Big Brother UK

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Right now I am watching the very last season of Big Brother UK. On the show there is a storyline revolving around an 18-year-old vlogger Cameron Cole who has a secret which he is considering sharing. It does seem that his secret revolves around his sexuality and that he might not be being completely honest about how he identifies. So just to put everyone in the picture Cameron is officially saying he’s straight at the moment but during his time in the house it has looked from some of the things he has said that it may not be true and at this stage a lot of viewers are thinking he’s gay.


I think it’s looking very likely that his secret is to do with his sexuality. Conversations about sexuality are what seems to have triggered something in Cameron to be more open about who he is. He might be gay and viewers who put forward why they think that with reasons and incidents I understand where they are coming from but there is viewers too who think it because they don’t think he’s straight. While there is thankfully viewers too who have more open in their thinking about Cameron being something other than gay or straight. And in the world ever but more openly nowadays, I don’t it’s as simple as someone is either straight or gay. There is so many sexualities, different ways of looking at your sexuality like for example 90% feeling for a gender, 10% for another gender and there is a lot of people who don’t label their sexuality either so there is a lot more options for what exactly Cameron is keeping secret even if you simply took it as being about his sexuality. And while I know it can still be difficult to say you’re gay, it is more difficult to say nowadays you’re something other than gay or straight.


Speaking as someone who is pan, I definitely think it would be harder to be open about that than saying you’re gay because a lot more people understand gay that may still not understand pan. And in general if you’re anywhere in the middle or anything other than gay or straight in general you may find it more difficult to say to a group especially since everyone else left in the house either likes just men or just women with no sway to their sexuality in any way. If Cameron is gay, he will have people who understand what it feels like from a personal perspective. If he feels any other way, though people hopefully and probably will be supportive, there wouldn’t be anyone who would understand what he was feeling from a personal perspective. And if he is anything other than gay, the fear is will people he’s living with get it and will they be ok with it? Will the viewers get it and be ok with it? I’m not saying people wouldn’t be but that can often go through a person’s mind when they don’t fit into a neat box.


Now Cameron may be gay. What I’m putting across here is other options because he hasn’t actually said he is gay. But he could be. I’m not disputing that. It does appear from situations to do with playful banter with some of the other housemates that at least part or all of his sexuality is that he likes guys. And they are living 24/7 with him so I would imagine they have an idea of that.


I do feel for him in this situation because he’s about to make a decision of whether to be open or not that will change his life. It has great changes where you have a weight off your shoulders and you’re open, honest and free. On the other hand while the world has moved on massively, there is always more of a chance someone won’t like you for being anything other than straight and some people can be dangerous in various ways in their prejudices and when I realised I was pan, after the happiness and the freedom, briefly I got a bit nervous of that. So there’s a lot of things he would probably fear facing so it’s not by any thought process an easy decision to make. He is in a TV show so there will be commentary of the events in the house and that’s understandable. You put yourself in a show, you have to expect that. I think it’s ok to talk about what might be at the heart of Cameron’s secret feelings because he is on reality show but there is a difference between speaking about possibly what he’s keeping back and actually saying that he’s gay or definitely saying it’s to do with his sexuality. It appears it is to do with his sexuality but until he says that, we don’t know that for a fact and I think we all as viewers need to have that respect to say well it could actually be something completely different even if it looks like it isn’t. And to realise that this is a human being making a decision that goes beyond this show. When I hear people saying “Would he ever just come out already?”, I do look because it’s something he needs to do in his own time whatever the situation and TV show or not, we need to remember that and respect that.


He has said he’s worried about his family and friends’ reactions. I don’t know the people involved but I’d like to think they’d love him for who he is. It can be harder in the world without the support of those you love.


His friendships especially with Lewis (who I like in a lot of ways but that’s a whole other blog post! :-)) and Cian are lovely to watch and they are being very understanding and supportive and are listening and helping him through. He’s only 18 and anyone would need support but it’s nice to see them both looking out for him as like big brothers.


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Cameron and Lewis


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Whatever the situation I wish Cameron all the best and hope his life is filled with happiness, freedom and truth.


Strictly Kosher Review!


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Jack Aizenberg In Strictly Kosher


Strictly Kosher (2011) is a wonderfully intriguing documentary about Jewish religion and culture directed by Chris Malone.


Set in Manchester the documentary follows three Jewish people and presents their varying different feelings about their religion and the effect it has on their lives. We meet Joel Lever who is flamboyant and full of energy and fun. He owns a boutique where many women come for outfits for weddings and a Bar Mitzvah or Bat Mitzvah. We also meet Bernette Clarke who makes gorgeous traditional Kosher meals for her family and she also has a love of wigs which I can completely relate to girl!


But my heart was stolen by Jack Aizenberg who spoke about living through the Holocaust and at one point showed a Nazi flag and spoke about the fear Jewish people felt in the time of Hitler when they would see that flag. He seems such a beautifully kind-hearted man and very compassionate. There was a warmth that came through from him which I really liked. A gentleman.


I love how this documentary gave Jewish life, religion and culture a representation that people who are Jewish unfortunately don’t always get on TV. Many myths were thankfully debunked and the documentary had a perfect mix of light-heartedness and truth about the prejudice Jewish people have faced and still face.


There is a few things which were a bit dodgy like genital mutilation, the whole only marrying someone of the same faith and the separation of males and females at wedding receptions and no space set up at all for non-binary people who presumably would have to dance one side or the other but I know there is many Jewish people who don’t believe in any of these things either. Aside from those three eye-raising issues, the Jewish religion is a really beautiful religion with wonderful family values and a very peaceful openness and kindness which was really gorgeous to see come alive in this documentary.


A must-watch.


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My Six Favourite Eurovision Entries 2018!

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The Eurovision is in full swing with the two semi-finals completed and I have now compiled for you all my five favourites for glory this Saturday …



Of course I’m ever so slightly bias here but in truth I do love the song and have utterly fallen in love with the story of the two dancers in the the song. This is a gorgeously crafted song, Ryan’s vocal is stunningly on point and Alan and Kevin do an incredible and oh-so-romantic job of the dancing. The staging of this song is like a mini play. Love it and am very proud of our entry this year. And of course I’m very much hoping it wins! Good luck Ireland! 🙂


I think Cesar’s voice is incredible. This track is wonderful with a great soul and gospel vibe. The staging is also great.


This song is so catchy and Saara’s vocal is as usual splendid. The staging is also great with the whole theme of gender fluidity and the way she falls back into two of the performers arms at the end.

Czech Republic

Again very catchy and very well performed by Mikolas Josef and the two other dancers. Very fun and I love the nerdy vibe Mikolas has going on.


I love this as I do love a bit of rock and it’s done well. It won’t be to everyone’s tastes but I think AWS are doing a great job. It’s three fun minutes of head-banging.

United Kingdom

I know our neighbours’ song hasn’t been to everyone’s tastes but I find it quite catchy and I think Surie is a wonderful singer and performer.

Courtney Act/Shane Jenek Wins Celebrity Big Brother!


I recently wrote some blog posts on CBBUK here and I didn’t get around to writing this one until today. But as most people are probably aware by now Courtney Act/Shane Jenek won Celebrity Big Brother on Friday night. It was probably the most nervous I have ever been watching a reality TV result. It came down to been predictably between Courtney and Ann and it felt so much more than a reality TV final. It felt like going back in times versus progression and thankfully with Courtney winning progression came out on top.

Leaving first on the night as previously said was ballet dancer Wayne Sleep followed by Ex on the Beach’s Jess Impiazzi and our very own Boyzone’s Shane Lynch came out in third. And then there was a half an hour to wait before the final big result where conservative MP Ann Widdecombe finished second to drag queen and Rupaul’s Drag Race runner-up Courtney Act/Shane Jenek. So happy!

Following the win, Courtney said to host Emma Willis in her interview,

“My inspiration coming into the house was that teenage boy who didn’t quite know where he belonged or how he fitted in and feeling inspired by the Spice Girls – and not knowing what that meant but knowing if it was ok for them to be different then it was ok for me to be different. I guess it’s validation that it’s ok to be different.”

Speaking about her friendship with fellow contestant, The Apprentice’s Andrew Brady, she said,

“He’s just so comfortable with everybody and everything. If more straight guys were more like him, the world would be a better place.”

Well done once again Shane/Courtney. Very proud of you! 🙂 And well done to the rest of the finalists too. 🙂

Check out Courtney’s amazing win here:

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Why Shane Jenek/Courtney Act Is My CBB Winner!

The final has just started so I better type quick! 🙂



Shane Jenek/ Courtney Act is my winner because he has being so passionate about LGBTQI rights, feminism and veganism and he hasn’t being scared to stand up for what he believes in. He is the only one who has spoke out about Ann’s views. He has such a kind heart, a heart of gold really. His values and his morals are simply beautiful. He has educated so many people on so much things that are usually swept under the carpet in mainstream media which can only make things easier for many of us out here.


He also has a great sense of humour and had a wonderful friendship with Andrew and also with Danny, Johnny and Malika.


Shane Jenek/Courtney has been a wonderful representative for pansexual, gender fluid, polyamorous people as well as vegans, feminists, atheists, Australians and drag queens. Oh yeah and blondes too. 🙂 He’s so wonderful and warm, the warmth oozes through the screen. On a personal level, he has done pansexual people, feminists and atheists proud. The pride in my heart at the fact pansexuality was mentioned on Big Brother UK was huge as I don’t think that’s happened before.


A win for Shane Jenek/Courtney Act is a win for equality also. Good luck Shane Jenek/Courtney Act! I love you! 🙂


Update: Wayne’s just been voted out. Loving all the Courtney chants! Whatever happens this cool, wonderful person is my winner! 🙂

My Opinion Of The CBB Finalists!



So the CBBUK final is almost upon us. And what a couple of weeks it has been! The final seems to have come down to equality versus oppression which I don’t think any of us could predict when it began. We are down to our final five who are going head to head well very soon so what is my opinion of our remaining finalists …


Ann Widdecombe


I think Ann is prejudiced. I think there’s been so many excuses for Ann’s opinions and decisions made in her career that it gets old very fast. In my mind, there is no excuse for prejudice. Age and being a Catholic are not excuses. I think it’s very insulting to older people and Catholics who haven’t a prejudiced bone in their body. I’m in favour of people who try to make people’s lives easier, not harder and in Ann’s career she has made peoples’ lives harder. I also find her quite boring and she never likes to have a laugh. I think she has stopped a lot o people in there from being themselves. I don’t blame her for that because they should have being themselves regardless of Ann been there.


Jess Impiazzi



I think Jess is a nice girl. The little girl voice does get on my nerves though. My only fault really with Jess is that I thought both her and Wayne were terrible in the task where they put Shane J/Courtney as the least in almost everything positive. She did go a little bit with the defending of Ann and I don’t think that was right.


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I love Shane J/Courtney. I hadn’t heard of him before the show and now I am such a huge fan. The passion he has for LGBTQI rights, feminism and veganism is so wonderful. He was the only one with the guts to actually challenge Ann’s views. He is such a gorgeously kind person with a wonderful sense of humour. And his friendship with Andrew was lovely too.


Shane Lynch


Shane’s Irish so I’m happy he made the final. He hasn’t done enough to win but he’s a nice man. But again he nominated Shane J/Courtney in the defence of Ann and I was a little bit embarrassed by that.


Wayne Sleep

I do like Wayne. He’s a nice man who is very funny especially when he’s drunk and his dancing is great fun. But on the other hand he was defending Ann too which was strange for him to do as a gay man.

Why Chad Johnson Is My Celebrity Big Brother Winner!


Chad is my winner of CBB this year. It was a close run thing with Sarah for picking my winner but I like Chad a bit more than Sarah but I like her too. Their relationship has been beautiful to watch. It feels very genuine and they seem to be so at ease with each other. They are like chalk and cheese and yet have so much in common at the same time. A very sweet couple.

Chad has always been there for Sarah when she was facing so much shit in the house. That’s been very sweet to watch. He’s a lovely guy and very loyal. Also his one-liners have been classic. We as viewers have really got to know Chad’s real personality throughout the show. He has went from been thought of by viewers as the ‘player’ to us all seeing that he is a warm-hearted, gentle, nice and down-to-earth lad. I also love how easy-going his manner is and he had Sandi spot-on. I don’t think I could have took the control she had about the kitchen either.

He has did great no matter what happens. He’s the last American among 5 English people and that is a great achievement especially considering that he has been up for eviction every week.

Good luck Chad! 🙂