Poem: Hope & Change

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The obstacles,

the hurdles,

what lies at the depth of my being?

How do I stay the same?

How do I change?

So much to learn,

to come to terms with,

the lessons of life,

the beautiful but hard lessons of life,

challenging but rewarding,

long but worth it,

I seek inside myself

and seek support,

reflection and needing,

reflection and dreaming,

is the life I desire possible?

Is it too late?

In the face of all I stay positive,

there is always hope,

there is always ways to make things right,

there is always time to live my dreams,

there is always time for change,

for growth,

for a newness of beauty,

no not perfection

but new knowledge,

new experiences,

a sense of this is right,

I am content

and this is as it should be,

I think that is a worthwhile goal.

Poem: The Mind

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Must keep the anxiety at bay,

the ‘crazy’ thoughts from spinning out of control,

shield and protect myself

from what my mind can do,

the mind can be complex

and confusing

and can shock me,

where it goes sometimes

is too imaginative to say the least,

mind be still,

brain be still,

I have enough on me plate

without you running riot,

be still,

leave me be,

keep me in reality

and not in inventive circles.

Poem: Energy

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The energy of our lives has been zapped somewhat,

it needs to be brought back,

joy,

some lightness,

all this heaviness is getting too much,

freeze time,

get the brains going and easing,

the night out tonight,

among people,

a new environment,

a mini start to coming back,

a break from more than daily stresses,

a pleasure and a joy

and in our lives that is needed.

Poem: My Heart Longs

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My heart longs for the day

when I freeze my eggs,

like a crying out,

a feeling of need,

though I will not give birth on that day

it feels like it is when my child or children will be conceived

in a modern technology type of way,

a creation born of love and beauty,

the creation of this baby or babies

who will hopefully live their lives,

long long lives

and find their purpose

feeling no pressure from Daddy to be anything they aren’t,

who will show love to others

because they are happy and not filled with hurt,

I long for the day I can start their creation,

I pine for it,

once it is done,

I can be content to continue my transition

knowing that one day,

everything goes as planned,

we will meet.

Poem: The Sockets Go

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The sockets go

and life is pretty different,

more things get talked out,

different things get done

which have fell to the wayside,

emotions start to open,

there is more communication,

new places are visited,

new acquaintances are made,

new experiences and new life,

better breathing and better skin,

nice to be back with technology

but think I need to bring some of the

socket situation into the new days,

might be more interesting.

Poem: We Are Here For You

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There is a lot for you to fight through,

you are brave and you will get there,

pet all that stuff is stuck inside you

like glue you are trying to peel away

but we are here for you,

we love you,

you are going to be ok,

we are going to support you

to make a light through the darkness.

Poem: All The Cents Counting Up

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Watching as all the cents count up,

a tin of prospects and hope,

one which started small,

now getting much bigger

and ready to create dreams,

a struggle and a joy,

my future,

their future,

life.