Still pretty rusty at the old fanfic writing but I’ve decided to write a longer fanfic and this is the first part. Entitled, Long-term Love and about the fabulous and beautiful couple that is Jaymi Hensley and Olly Marmon (Jolly), here is the first part and I hope you all enjoy it. 🙂
Title: Long-term Love
Disclaimer: I don’t know Union J. What I’m writing is complete fiction.
Jaymi sat on his bed in the lonely hotel room just staring into space. He was deep in thought. Everything was so much more complicated when you were in love and clearly even harder he thought when you weren’t sure if you were in love anymore. His eyes scanned his mobile phone which lay on the bedside cabinet. Before he would have been straight on the phone to Olly chattering away. But now he was so confused and unsure of how he felt that he would have felt too guilty to get on the phone and talk to him. He didn’t understand what was happening. It seemed that the longer he spent away from Olly his feelings were getting less stronger and he felt terrible for feeling that way. Olly and he had been together so long after all, they lived together, they were engaged, they had little Belle. He felt he should be more loyal to him. But he couldn’t help how he felt. Over time it had gradually grew and grew and he didn’t know what to do. His thoughts are interrupted by a tapping on the door and the sound of a familiar voice,
“Hey Jaymi, you alright in there?”
Time to act. Time to put on a brave face and pretend everything is absolutely fine.
“Yeah. I’m totally fine Josh.”, he calls back getting up from the bed and going to answer the door.
“Hey, come on in.”, he says letting Josh in.
“JJ gone out?”
“Yeah. He nipped down to the shops …”
“There’s a lot of fans outside.”
“It’s alright. He wore a hat and went out the back way.”
“Oh that’s good then. And you stayed in your hotel room alone doing what?”, Josh says with a cheeky wink.
Jaymi smiles and blushes before changing the subject.
“So good night out last night with George?”
“Not bad. Could have been a better atmosphere but still it was good.”
“What’s it like?”
“What’s what like?”
“Been single? Going out and possibly meeting someone?”
“Well you’re not always thinking of that …”
“Yeah but still …”
“When you are it can be a bit of a letdown sometimes because so many people aren’t genuine. They don’t treat me like a normal person, just Josh from Union J. It’s so difficult to know for a fact if someone is interested in you for you. But you have that sorted mate. You know Olly loves you for you because you two were together long before Union J.”
“That is true.”
But it only made Jaymi feel worse. Olly had stood by him when he was a struggling singer trying to make it and now not long into their career he was considering breaking up with him. It felt to him like those popstars who had long-term partners and split up with them when fame beckoned and he had always swore that he would never do that to Olly. Never felt he’d ever need to. Never thought he’d ever feel the way he was feeling now. He has fell into his own thoughts again and Josh’s voice alerts him back to reality.
“Oh sorry Josh. I was far away there.”
Josh looks concerned and Jaymi knows he has to change the subject before he is caught on to and he doesn’t want to have this conversation with Josh or anyone. He wants to put on a brave front and handle the situation himself.
“Yeah. So JJ should be back soon with some food. He said he might pop into the take-away on the way back if it was open but I don’t think it’ll be open. I mean it was closed this time yesterday but maybe the times are different for today …”, he is speaking quickly and Josh stops him.
“Are you and Olly alright? I mean are you two alright together?”
“Of course we are! Why wouldn’t we be?!”, he reacts defensively.
“Alright. Alright mate. I’m not hitting at you. Just the way you’re asking these questions. What way am I supposed to think?”
“Well we’re fine. I was just curious. That’s all.”
“Right. Good then.”
The door clicks open and JJ comes in carrying two take-aways and a plastic bag filled with groceries.
“Hey boys. It’s cold out there today. But I got the take-aways. I’m sorry. I couldn’t find you or George to ask you boys what you wanted …”
“Yeah. We were out earlier. It’s alright JJ man.”
Jaymi’s mobile phone rings. He stands rooted to the spot. The ringing getting more and more painful to his ears.
“Well aren’t you going to answer that mate?”, JJ asks.
“What’s it to you if I am or I amn’t. It’s none of your concern.”
“Jaymi, I’m just saying man. I mean it might be Olly.”
“Oh yeah and I have to answer every time he calls do I? Like he owns me or something? Well he doesn’t!”
“I, I didn’t mean that. I just meant that he is your boyfriend. Don’t you want to talk to him? See how he is? Hear his voice? That sort of thing.”
The ringing starts again.
“Oh for crying out loud! Will that ever stop?!”, Jaymi says picking up the phone and putting it off.
“What’s wrong? Has he done something wrong? Because if he has …”, JJ begins.
“He’s done nothing wrong JJ. I wish he had. Look I’m going out for a walk. I need to clear my head.”
He walks out of the room.
“What’s going on Josh?”
“I have no idea JJ.”
Olly sat in the kitchen area of the hair salon and placed his mobile phone on the kitchen counter. Why on earth was he not answering?, he thought. Had something happened to him?, he thought but quickly pushed that out of his head. It wasn’t like he was blind to the facts. The more time that they were spending apart the more they were growing further and further apart. He knew he was holding on out of a sense of loyalty, duty and because he loved Jaymi still as a person and didn’t want to hurt him. And yet he wasn’t sure that he was in love with him anymore. He picked up his cup of tea and took a sip. The warm liquid flowed through him but unlike the comforting feeling that warm tea gave one it couldn’t comfort him. Not in this situation. Not now.
Jaymi reached a park bench and sat down. Further guilt immensed him. Olly might be worried sick about him. He took the phone from his trouser pocket and turned it on. Two missed calls. He knew he had to call Olly but as he searched for his name in his contacts list his hands began to shake and he dropped the phone. He breathed in and out and tried to compose himself. Come on Jaymi, pull yourself together. You’ve rang this number a million times before, he told himself and picked up his mobile phone. He breathed deeply and rang Olly. The dialling tone rang and rang and it was the most scary few seconds of his life. Finally Olly answered.
He sounded tense but Jaymi chose to ignore this. He was tense himself.
“Hi Olly. Sorry, I missed your calls earlier. My battery was dead.”
“That’s alright. I figured as much.”
“Yeah. So how are you?”
“I’m good. It was a slow day at the salon. How are you and the boys?”
“We’re fine. Did a few interviews earlier and now we’re off for the night.”
“Are you at the hotel?”
“Yeah. Just relaxing. Where are you?”
“Just got back home. Going to wrap a duvet around me and watch a movie. Miss you.”
“Miss you too.”
“Jaymi I adore you. You know that don’t you?”
“Yeah, of course. Why wouldn’t you?”, Jaymi joked but even as he was he could see his free hand shaking.
“Well that is true.”
“I adore you too.”
There was silence for a few moments that felt more like an eternity for both of them before Jaymi broke the silence.
“Well I’ll give you a call tomorrow.”
“Of course I will. You keep yourself safe now and enjoy your movie.”
“I will. You enjoy your relaxing.”
“Yeah I will. Bye babe.”
Jaymi ended the call and looked out into space. How would this all play out?, he feared. He was scared. This was too important to end badly. It had to end as well as it could. He knew that he had to handle this well but he didn’t trust himself to do so.
Back at the hotel, George had now joined JJ and Josh in JJ’s and Jaymi’s hotel room.
“He’s acting weird George. Going on about been curious about what been single is like and saying that Olly doesn’t own him. JJ never said he did.”, Josh explained.
“I was wondering because I heard the shouting earlier but it was a bit muffled.”
“I think he wants to end it with Olly.”
“Oh JJ you don’t say.”, Josh said.
“He shouldn’t. Olly is a great guy.”, George said.
“But if he isn’t happy …”, JJ began.
“Stop. We can’t let him make the biggest mistake of his life. He’d regret it!”, Josh protested.
“Don’t get me wrong. I love Olly. He’s amazing and he’s a mate of mine but Jaymi’s one of my best friends. I will stand by whatever his decision is.”, JJ said.
“What’s got into him though? It’s ridiculous. Most people want what he has and here he is about to throw it all away.”, Josh replied.
JJ was watching TV while sitting on his bed when Jaymi came back in.
“Hey mate. About earlier …”
“Don’t mention it. It’s absolutely fine Jaymi.”, JJ said with a wave of his hand.
“But all the same I am sorry. I shouldn’t have snapped.”
“It doesn’t matter.”
“Do you want to talk about anything?”
“No. Why would I?”, Jaymi asked defensively.
“Don’t be defensive. I’m your friend and I’m here for you. If you need to talk about anything, anything at all, I’m here.”
Jaymi sighed and sat on his own bed.
“It’s about Olly.”
“I’d gathered that much.”, JJ smiled.
“Well I don’t know how I feel about him anymore.”
“Ok and was it gradual or did something happen?”
“It was gradual. The more we were away from each other the more we began to grow apart. Don’t get me wrong. I care about him. Deeply. And I do still love him but I’m just not sure that I’m still in love with him.”
“And I don’t know what to do JJ. It isn’t like this is some guy that I’ve been dating a couple of weeks or months. We’re living together, we’re supposed to be getting married and we’ve been four years together.”
“Oh JJ, I’m an awful person. He’s brilliant. Why can’t I love him?”
“You’re not an awful person Jaymi. Everything will be alright.”, JJ said and gave Jaymi a hug.
More soon and Happy New Year everyone to you and yours! 🙂