My brain is on fire
but so is my heart,
my pain is on fire
but so is my needs
and my heart and needs are winning by a mile.
Poem: On Fire
Monthly Archives: September 2023
Poem: Opportunity
I have let myself down in the past,
this time I have to save myself,
it seems so hard
but it is an opportunity,
grab it Mitch,
make your life better,
take off lad,
get going,
let’s have fun,
laughter,
lightness,
a brain break,
I want to laugh so much
that I am crying out the stress.
Poem: Pretend
I think it is going to be hard
to pretend to love you
when I don’t even like you
and I feel it is going to get even more difficult
as time goes on.
What details of your life could you pay more attention to?
There is quite a few things but I think the area I want to pursue more is my transition. Yes, I pay a lot of heed to it already but there’s a lot and life gets in the way. The part of my transition I have mostly been concentrating on of late is freezing my eggs but that process may soon be coming to a close so I am starting to think more of the next stages a bit more like my legal name change, my gender marker, testosterone, packers and getting binders for safety. So that would be what I wish to concentrate more on at this chapter in my life. 🙂
Poem: Hopeful
It is all clear,
the clarity in my mind,
I have made a big decision
and took a big leap forward,
I am free,
tired,
drained
but free,
clear
and hopeful.
Poem: Drag
Drag with all its beautiful fantasy
helped bring out the real me,
drag in all its beautiful creativity
helped me feel safe,
drag is also something I have done all my life
without realising,
I am an old pro without ever being on stage,
the stage has often being my life
at the risk of sounding like Shakespeare
and therefore drag has protected me,
Brian my wing man,
Lisa my wing woman,
Mitch,
me,
who they have helped with love.
What’s your #1 priority tomorrow?
My number one priority tomorrow is the same one which I have had for almost three months: don’t smoke and keep going towards getting my eggs frozen. It is the biggest dream I have in my head right now and I can’t wait to get it done. I will then know that I am going to be a Daddy and it’ll be fab to know that. So yeah, that is absolutely my priority! 🙂
Your life without a computer: what does it look like?
I think it would look very different! 🙂 This blog wouldn’t exist. My other blog wouldn’t exist. I wouldn’t be able to publish my books. I wouldn’t be able to do my online courses. I wouldn’t be able to do my drag on Instagram. God, it would be very different to what it is. I wouldn’t be as productive but maybe I would go out more! 🙂
Poem: No More Confusion
Confusion is nearing its conclusion either way,
I will be oh so joyfully gay,
soon will be the day,
this is where the cards may lay
and on my life I have the final say
so you’ll have to keep your controlling ways at bay.
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