Short Story: Free

This short story Free is about my character Mitch who has appeared in my books After The Fishing Trip, Xmas With The Fam and Hidden. It is set long before those stories and I may include it in a future book about Mitch’s earlier years. I hope you all like it.

Free

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When Mitch had told his father and brother that he was pan the reaction had been better than he had thought it was going to be. His father felt, though problematic in and of itself, that he would end up with a girl because he was gentle. At the time Mitch’s father and Mitch himself thought that Mitch was a woman so that made it problematically progressive in a weird kind of way and Mitch held out much hope that soon it would all come together and things would be completely fine.

Confident that he wouldn’t have to hide items in presses anymore that might give away his sexual and romantic orientation he now wore his rainbow flag bag out to the shops and to his secretarial course at the local community college. But the bubble of everything would be fine was about to burst when he returned early from college one day to hear his father and his brother in the kitchen. His father and brother were discussing with hope that one day he would end up with a lad. As he stood outside the kitchen door his body felt empty, sick to his stomach. He felt a hand rest on his shoulder gently. He looked around to see his mother who had known that he was pan long ago and had been nothing other than supportive. She took his hand and led him into the living-room where they both sat down on the sofa.

‘Don’t take that in. You always be you and you be proud of who you are. Your father and brother just have their old, silly ways.’, she said.

He had nodded, appreciating her words but lost in the sickness consuming his belly. But he took his mother’s advice and continued to carry his rainbow bag with pride. Soon his father realised what the flag represented after seeing highlights from a Pride parade on the news. Not long after Mitch attended his first Pride with his mother and throughout all this though his father and brother made no comment of their disapproval their tone and body language showed just how uncomfortable they were with the whole thing. His father tried to smile and say he should have came because there was celebrities at the event but there was no mention of going to support Mitch. His mother spoke about how free she felt at the event and how much she loved the atmosphere with everyone coming together. She spoke about an older man whose story she heard at the event who had spent his life keeping back that he was gay and now that it was all out in the open he felt so free in his mind. All his father could respond was ‘Ah well, that was just how it was.’

But it wasn’t just his father and brother Mitch seen the unequal situation of life occur in. It was everywhere he soon found. He would overhear students and tutors assume someone was straight unless otherwise stated and hear tutors run down safe spaces and get angry about censorship against prejudiced views. He heard students saying gay couples on TV were ‘funny’. He heard minority groups being debated in Critical thinking classes in a way majority groups weren’t. He began to see how minority groups were thought of as fair game, how he was thought of as fair game and how everything was so personal but he was not supposed to take it as personal. Because of course that would be seen as too sensitive. Or worse a troublemaker. Mitch knew all about being made feel like those things. When he had been younger he had being much more openly opinionated until he had been worn down by his father’s and brother’s gaslighting and the gaslighting of much of the world in general. In the past while his mother had spoken to him about his worries about the world he was entering into as an adult or the world he had just entered into as an adult his father would often overhear and say things like ‘You are bringing down the mood in the house’, ‘You’ll have to go’ and ‘You want your own way.’ Though Mitch secretly hated how he had become so suppressed in talking out his opinions and feelings, he was used to being suppressed in such matters. It seemed easier to just pretend not to have a mind. But of course his father always knew that he was opinionated within and would occasionally comment things like ‘You used to be terrible but you grew out of that’ or when someone opinionated was in the news ‘He/She are a bit like you, a toughie’. To add to all this his father would play the sob act of ‘not understanding all of these new things’ when he read about people being anything other than straight, gay or cis and constantly referred to gay celebrities as ‘The gay man/woman’ while straight celebrities were simply ‘The man/woman.’

Mitch grew up in a time where things were changing. But still so much wasn’t. In the TV shows he would watch parents like his father were given the classic get out of jail card every episode. TV had not moved beyond mostly gay and straight but the fact it had moved beyond just straight was progress. Often he longed for a writer to understand his side of things but they never fully did. Often he would get wrapped up in a show only to find that the character was only put across as likeable if they understood why their parent was ignorant and helped them through. It wasn’t healthy to put across Mitch thought in one part of his brain but another part questioned whether he was compassionate, whether he was a good person. Add into this media and society was still putting across that anyone other than straight or gay was ‘Having their cake and eating it’, ‘Greedy’, ‘Unsure’ or ‘Afraid of commitment.’

When Mitch’s mother died, his heart was broken and he felt like he couldn’t handle things without her there. It was just he, his father and his brother living in the house and his father’s continued comments of him ‘One day finding a nice lad’ was scratching away at the steel surrounding his heart. A few months passed and a combination of everything was gradually building in him and he didn’t realise it. So much so that it crept up on him when he one night put his hands to his throat while his father and brother were in bed. For however long time he wasn’t sure he sat on the sofa in that position feeling like he would do it but then he banged the sofa and freed himself from the most terrifying situation he had ever found himself in. His mind had been filled with so much: pain at the discrimination he faced and pain at the idea that he wasn’t a good person. He had been left with three options: leave the world, stay in the world and conform or stay in the world and be himself. He chose the latter and quickly typed a story to get his feelings out. An angry, messy short story that he would never publish but it served his purpose. That night he packed, left a note and left.

It was while in New York that he realised he was a trans man and later omni as well as pan. His father and brother had been in touch on Facebook guilt-tripping him into returning. He ignored their messages. He had a freedom in his life and in his mind that he had never had before and he wasn’t going to let that go for anyone. He later heard that his father and brother were not in favour of him being trans and omni either but that wasn’t shocking. For the first time in his life he could be open as a trans, pan and omni man without worrying about debating back against the backlash which his father, brother and many others had thought him he was bad to debate back against. He was free, content and alive. Sure he often faced those who said ‘mature people don’t run away. They stay and sort it out.’ In other words people who were still blaming him for not being kind enough to understand people discriminating against him. But he had got his confidence back and he wasn’t letting it go ever again.

5 Videos To Watch This Week On YouTube!

Hi everybody! 🙂

I am back with another 5 video suggestions post for you today:

Social Issues

This very interesting video by Vox explores the problematic history of casting predominantly white actors in the roles of Asian characters. The fact it ever happened and the fact it happens still today is an utter disgrace.

Books

I am listening to a lot of Agatha Christie audiobooks while I am writing at the moment. This short story was one of Agatha’s books I hadn’t heard of before but of course it’s brilliant. David Suchet and Hugh Fraser who are pretty much the ones I mostly think of as Poirot and Hastings due to the TV adaptations are performing and narrating.

Drag/TV

Season 13 of RuPaul’s Drag Race is starting soon and recently we met the queens who will be participating. It seems like a great cast. I of course have a few early favourites but they all seem cool.

History/Mythology/Supernatural

Christmas is coming so it seems a good time to watch a bit about the history of Krampus, Saint Nick’s nemesis. It was really interesting to hear the history of Krampus as I do not know much about them and learning about all the countries who have celebrations which are Krampus-related.

Music

From 1973’s Top of the Pops here is the Christmas classic Merry Christmas Everybody by Slade. Very fun tune.

5 Videos To Watch This Week On YouTube!

Hi everyone! 🙂

Still catching up with this series. Sorry for the slowness. 🙂

Here is my five video suggestions for this week:

History

Here is part 2 of OverSimplified’s animated story of The French Revolution. I find these really great and I plan to watch more of them at some stage. Really accessible way to learn history.

Sport

There is a channel I have been watching a lot recently called espmadrid on YouTube. On the channel you can find lots of horse races from various different years which as a horse racing race I very much enjoy. It is also quite relaxing to watch while I am writing but that could just be me so I have three videos from the channel. First up the 1997 Murphy’s Gold Cup Handicap Chase which was won by the amazing Senor El Betrutti in fine style.

Next up we have the 1999 Tote Becher Handicap Chase. A very comprehensive win by the brilliant Feels Like Gold.

And finally in horse racing we have the Tote Becher Handicap Chase from 2000 which was won by one of my favourite horses in horse racing history the superb Young Kenny.

Music

To end, here is a Christmas classic with Christmas around the corner. I present to you all Wham! with Last Christmas:

My New Book 1000 Quiz Questions Is Now Available!

My new book 1000 Quiz Questions is now available on Amazon and Payhip.

The book contains 1000 questions from various different categories. It was a lot of fun and very interesting to put together. I think I might be a slight bit brighter since putting the book together if my memory can hold out. While writing the book, I have been doing the quiz with my Mum and Sister and it has been a lot of fun. I hope it is great fun for you and yours too or just to challenge yourself if you decide to purchase the book and thank you in advance. 🙂

To purchase 1000 Quiz Questions go to:

1000 Quiz Questions eBook: Reynolds, Lisa: Amazon.co.uk: Kindle Store

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My Book Positive Affirmations: Dealing With Bullying Is Now Available!

Positive Affirmations: Dealing With Bullying by [Lisa Reynolds]

My book Positive Affirmations: Dealing With Bullying is now available on Amazon and Payhip.

This affirmations book contains 50 affirmations for helping you get through bullying. At the moment I am writing affirmations books related to bad experiences I have had myself in the hope I can help those going through those experiences. I was bullied in school for the majority of my school life. I also faced workplace bullying at one point in my life and it is these bad experiences I am drawing inspiration from for this collection. If I can help even one person in some way through this book then at least some good will come from those bad experiences. I hope this book helps you. 🙂

If you choose to purchase the book, thank you in advance. 🙂

To purchase Positive Affirmations: Dealing With Bullying go to:

https://payhip.com/b/B59p

Tips For Being An Honest Writer!

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We all have different goals when it comes to writing a book. One of the things I always try to put into my books is honesty. That usually comes in my books in the form of people saying and thinking things that people are often too nervous to be open about in reality – myself included. I find the honesty in my writing my best quality. I also find it my worse because I often worry I am too honest in it and depending on the reader that can be quite scary. But I think the pros outweigh the cons for me on both a personal and professional level. In this blog post I am going to give you five tips on how to be a more honest writer if that is something you would like to be. Hope they help. 🙂

Be Passionate About Your Subject

If you are passionate about a topic, it is easier to be honest about it. You care about you are talking about and with that comes a feeling of responsibility to not shy away from speaking about this passionately. Personally with me for example that is generally inequality and the normalizing of inequality so when I go on a run about that, it’s real and that translates as honest hopefully to a reader and that all comes from having a deep passion about what I am putting across. So my advice to you is find a topic you feel strongly about because then you will be more inclined to want to do it justice.

Allow Your Personality To Influence Your Writing Style

There is going to be certain things you are going to be told not to do as a writer. Don’t write too informal. Don’t write too formal. Don’t be too sentimental. Don’t be too preachy. I would ignore it all because while those things don’t suit one reader, they suit another. It’s subjective but almost every reader can spot if it is not authentic to that writer. Some writers don’t put their personality into their books but it is a very good way of getting honesty into your writing because your thoughts and how you see the world are something you can write with honest detail and others will relate to things you put in the book. You might think your thoughts are so out there or whatever but sorry to burst your bubble, any thought you have has probably been thought by someone else somewhere.

Don’t Be Afraid To Go Against The Grain

A lot of characters are very identical in a lot of books. For example the introvert who is scared of people or the non-LGBTQAI+ person seeking approval so badly from parents. And listen those stereotypes exist so it is important to have them in books but that isn’t every introvert or every non-LGBTQAI+ person. If you are not a person who believes in stereotypes like me then it makes your writing dishonest when you copy what another writer does. That writer might believe in stereotypes but if you don’t it is going to come across really fake.

Pretend You Aren’t Writing Something People Will Read

I am not sure I would write half the stuff I write if I was constantly thinking this is going out for publication. It is often the fear of the reaction which makes us write safe and not what we really want to write ourselves. Try as much you can to forget why you are writing this and write it for you and let it flow. At the end, you always have the option not to publish it. And if you do decide to publish but you are nervous, hit the publish/send button quick. It can be hard but try as best as you can to try and not let fear destroy you from writing and putting out something you have always wanted to write. It is scary as all hell but the most rewarding thing in the world.

5 Videos To Watch This Week On YouTube!

Hi everyone! 🙂

Here is five more video suggestions to watch on YouTube this week.

Music

Here is a classic Never Gonna Give You Up by Rick Astley. Good cheesy fun and I think the bar person in the music video is brilliant.

I was a huge fan of Steps when I was younger so this brings back memories! Here they are with Deeper Shade Of Blue. Great music and love the outfits.

Music/TV

I love the Eurovision Again idea and was very pleased to see 1990 being one the years shown as that is when I was born. Such an entertaining show. Years gone on and all but Liam, you done us proud! 🙂

Books/Supernatural

This video from Slapped Ham presents books which are thought to be cursed and speaks about the history and the stories which surround them. I don’t believe in it all but I still don’t think I would like to read them or own them all the same! 🙂

History

This is the first part of an animated video showing the history of The French Revolution from OverSimplified. A really informative and entertaining way to learn history indeed. Very creative.

5 Videos To Watch This Week On YouTube!

Firstly my apologies for not having this section up as regularly as usual. I have been doing NanoWriMo and it has took over! 🙂 So I will be putting up a few of these posts during the week to make up for that so expect lots of video suggestions. 🙂

True Crime

In this episode of Buzzfeed Unsolved Ryan and Shane talk about the very puzzling and interesting case of The Mary Celeste.

Mythology

In this episode of Monstrum Emily Zarka looks at the Nuckelavee from Scottish mythology. Monstrum is a great series which I came across recently and combines a great mixture of supernatural, literature and history and this episode is no different. A great watch.

History

In this episode of Geographics (another great series along with Biographics which I have come across recently) Simon Whistler talks about the tragic history of The Tower Of London.

Relaxation

Another very relaxing video by Sarai from Peace and Saraity Asmr with invisible scratching, audio scratching, scraping and raking of all your stress and tension.

In this video from Maddie from Mads Asmr, she repeats one of her signature relaxation techniques of taking a look at something which has got stuck in your eye. Very relaxing and I have definitely needed to relax with NaNoWriMo.

My New Book Positive Affirmations: Dealing With Gaslighting Is Now Available!

Positive Affirmations: Dealing With Gaslighting by [Lisa Reynolds]

Hi everyone! 🙂

I have just released my book Positive Affirmations: Dealing With Gaslighting on Amazon and Payhip. It is a very personal book to me and I hope it can help people out there in similar situations.

This is my fourth affirmations book. The first three books were a mixture of different affirmations about being generally confident and positive about yourself but in this book I wanted to specifically write affirmations to help people who are being gaslit or are dealing with scars from being gaslit. There is a personal reason why I put this book together because I have being gaslit and I still am being. But the difference now as opposed to before is that I no longer take in the negativity or believe it. Of course there is times I get doubts but it’s not as regular or as dangerous to my mind as it used to be because I don’t regularly believe what gaslighters say about me anymore.

Like my previous three affirmations books, I have put together 50 affirmations for this book. I hope that they help in some way and I just want to say if you are suffering due to gaslighting, you can come through it even though it doesn’t always feel like that. You have so much potential, never let anyone take that away from you.

This is my thirtieth book and releasing my thirtieth book on my sister’s birthday which is today couldn’t be more apt as she has been so incredibly supportive of both my writing and of me as person so happy birthday Sharon and it seems so right to reach such a special milestone on the birthday of such a special person. 🙂

To purchase Positive Affirmations: Dealing With Gaslighting go to:

https://payhip.com/b/rTz8

5 Videos To Watch This Week On YouTube!

Hi everyone! 🙂

It is that time of the week again. Here is my five video suggestions for this week.

Politics

American politics have very much been front and centre recently. This great video by Vox presents the presidency of Barack Obama and shows just how vital it is to have a great, strong president at the helm. Really interesting watch.

Staying with politics and Vox, here is Vox’s case for the President Elect Joe Biden. Again really interesting and will be of much interest especially to people at the moment.

Film

Lately I have found a great channel with James Somerton’s channel. In this episode James talks about the connection between horror films and the LGBTQAI+ community. Very informative and intriguing.

Music

You can’t really go wrong with Jamiroquai for a good bop and Space Cowboy is a classic. Love the music video too.

And when you need a break from dancing, here is a classic power ballad Get Here by Oleta Adams. Amazing music video as well.